Kenzie and I wandered Cadboro Bay and surrounds yesterday discovering new paths and beaches.... the sun shone. He played happily in the sand for over an hour and we saw no one. No one other than the geese, ducks and family of otters playing in the water while songbirds and gentle waves filled the air with an symphony of gentle spring song....
Need a reason to vote? No - I know I am blessed to live in a country for which citizens can vote privately. I have friends who immigrated from places where they don't have that right - either to vote or to vote because they are a woman or to vote secretly.
We live in a place where each person has a say if they take that say. It's not just a right. It's a privilege and more importantly it's a responsibility.
It's not just living by the ocean that makes me realize how lucky I am. I vote for two reasons.... and I need no other....
Monday, May 2, 2011
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Juggling
We all juggle. Every day. Balancing precariously priorities as life changes and swishes by us forcing us to stop, change direction, add balls, drop them.
Don't ever drop the ball of your love. It is your centre, the strength and foundation around which you juggle everything else. without nourishing love and self, why bother juggling at all?
Don't ever drop the ball of your love. It is your centre, the strength and foundation around which you juggle everything else. without nourishing love and self, why bother juggling at all?
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Of magnolias, bits, bobs and boobie beads...
The sun has been out for a few days this week. The. Sun. Sure, still it's coldish for Victoria in April, I still have mittens on in the morning while I scrape the ice off the car. Sure, my feet are still so cold in my office I have the space heater on most days. But it's the sun. And it's been away too long.
Of course, the sun being out means my eyes hurt. A lot. And the sexy wrap around over the regular glasses are back on. But it also means the blossoms are out. Millions of them. Cherry trees, apple trees, daffodils, tulips, the rhodos and of course, the magnolias. Oh the magnolias.
When I was growing up my grandmother gave me her copy of Gone with the Wind. It was tattered then but I loved it. Every page. I was enchanted. Even my high school graduation dress was a southern belle like gown. My mother took to calling me Laurabelle, her magnolia blossom of the north. She even labeled cards and packages to University Residence with that moniker. Seriously. And her Laurabelle, Magnolia blossom of the north I have remained to this day.
What is ironic is that the first spring after my parents moved to Victoria, my mom and I were driving somewhere and I exclaimed delight as I pointed out the season's first magnolia blossoms. Mom looked long and hard at them and said, "That's a magnolia?". I think I stopped the car and stared at her for a moment. "You've been calling me a magnolia blossom since I was in junior high school and you never even knew what they looked like mom? What if they had been butt ugly?" We laughed. And I still adore magnolias. Truly I do. That's what my first tattoo will be if and when the ink gun hits the skin....
I adore magnolias so much my mood is happier and like a blossom hidden all winter from somewhere deep inside the urge came to start trying to make necklaces. Okay, I knew where the urge came from. There was a fusion necklace made with old and new components on a website I stalk that I fell in love with. Never bought because I never had money at the time to buy it. It seemed extravagant. And it sold. I lost it. And vowed to make myself one similar one day.
So one day this week I started to play with gillet pieces that I took apart and some pendants from Pakistan I had in my collection. I found gorgeous blue beads I found to match the blue in the pendant. And I played. And created. And loved it. I posted the first few on fb - got incredibly supportive feedback. And made more. And more. And more. Stripping out old necklaces I never wear or that I bought and loved but find too uncomfortable to wear, finding earrings I either don't wear or that are missing pieces, ripping apart headpieces I made but were too wide. The table at my house is a wild crazy place at the moment. Colourful and strewn with bits, bobs, and boobie beads.
I decided along the way that if it wasn't something I would be willing and comfortable to wear, I wouldn't make it. So often, necklaces are made for necks that aren't my size with beads that poke into the skin. Not on my table. So the necklaces are bigger in diameter - at least 37 cm. I put a daisy bead in the first piece. Loved it. Vowed there would be one or two in each piece.
The creating started on Wednesday and in the last 4 days I have made 15 necklaces. All using pieces I had, some new beads and findings from the bead store, most fusing old tribal components with new components to make everyday wearable necklaces. Even a piece with a cowboy boot and old tribal coins. Call it a crazy idea but it is remarkably adorable. I took them on a proper photo shoot by the ocean today. A photo shoot. For necklaces. Holy smokes Scarlett!
It's crazy. I can't get enough. I've ordered more pendants and gillet and boobie beads. I'm going to start listing them on Etsy this week and have so much to learn about that process. My fingers are numb and I've run out of clasps. But the magnolias are still blooming, workshops are expensive.... and frankly - I have a couple crafty habits to support and some dreams to fund. Maybe, just maybe, I've found a lovely lovely way to do it. And along the way, maybe I'll find the pieces to make my own version of the necklace I fell in love with and that got away.
Of course, the sun being out means my eyes hurt. A lot. And the sexy wrap around over the regular glasses are back on. But it also means the blossoms are out. Millions of them. Cherry trees, apple trees, daffodils, tulips, the rhodos and of course, the magnolias. Oh the magnolias.
What is ironic is that the first spring after my parents moved to Victoria, my mom and I were driving somewhere and I exclaimed delight as I pointed out the season's first magnolia blossoms. Mom looked long and hard at them and said, "That's a magnolia?". I think I stopped the car and stared at her for a moment. "You've been calling me a magnolia blossom since I was in junior high school and you never even knew what they looked like mom? What if they had been butt ugly?" We laughed. And I still adore magnolias. Truly I do. That's what my first tattoo will be if and when the ink gun hits the skin....
I adore magnolias so much my mood is happier and like a blossom hidden all winter from somewhere deep inside the urge came to start trying to make necklaces. Okay, I knew where the urge came from. There was a fusion necklace made with old and new components on a website I stalk that I fell in love with. Never bought because I never had money at the time to buy it. It seemed extravagant. And it sold. I lost it. And vowed to make myself one similar one day.
The creating started on Wednesday and in the last 4 days I have made 15 necklaces. All using pieces I had, some new beads and findings from the bead store, most fusing old tribal components with new components to make everyday wearable necklaces. Even a piece with a cowboy boot and old tribal coins. Call it a crazy idea but it is remarkably adorable. I took them on a proper photo shoot by the ocean today. A photo shoot. For necklaces. Holy smokes Scarlett!
It's crazy. I can't get enough. I've ordered more pendants and gillet and boobie beads. I'm going to start listing them on Etsy this week and have so much to learn about that process. My fingers are numb and I've run out of clasps. But the magnolias are still blooming, workshops are expensive.... and frankly - I have a couple crafty habits to support and some dreams to fund. Maybe, just maybe, I've found a lovely lovely way to do it. And along the way, maybe I'll find the pieces to make my own version of the necklace I fell in love with and that got away.
Labels:
fusion jewelry,
photography; creative risk,
spring
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Looking for balance
I've been ruminating a lot on my life lately. Looking for direction again and dreams that somehow need to be redefined as my own. So many challenges to face but so many moments of love and laughter and joy to find and cherish along the way in every day.
My biggest challenge?
Not my eyes though the fact that they are still so sore and sensitive to light and sun scare me very much. What will it mean for my photography? How does an always chilled sun loving gecko deal with a world in which she can't be in the sun without pain?
Not being alone for the rest of my life even though that would be lonely in many ways and there are days it makes me very sad not to have someone hold me and to hold. Not as a friend. As a soul mate and lover.
Not as a failure to my children. The boys are amazing and so individual. Even in the fact that there is something unique about each of them that they cherish and love despite society pressures means they will be okay. Doesn't mean they'll be perfect. Heck - I sure am not... but they will be themselves and in a world in which they know they are loved.
I think that my biggest challenge is learning that it is okay to put myself first sometimes. To ask for the time and attention I need without feeling guilty about it. Without feeling like I'm imposing or in the way or should be helping everyone else instead of being greedy and needing something for myself. It's almost like on the airplane where you put on your own oxygen mask first before helping other people. I've never done that. It's a cycle I've seen repeatedly until I am worn past useful. It's time for it to stop. I deserve to hear more yes's than no's. When I give to myself. When I learn to feel safe asking the people I love for the things I need, I will be stronger. Then I can give better. Love better. Create better. Work better. Parent better. Then I can say yes so much better to the people and things in my life and find the balance in giving and taking that I so lack now.
That is, and probably always will be my biggest challenge. And I know I need the people who love me in my life to know that. To support that, encourage that and foster that. And sometimes, during really hard times, for those people to sometimes say yes, even when I haven't had the nerve to ask the question.
and as Miss Rachel Brice told us, dance for yourself. because no one can do it for you...
My biggest challenge?
Not my eyes though the fact that they are still so sore and sensitive to light and sun scare me very much. What will it mean for my photography? How does an always chilled sun loving gecko deal with a world in which she can't be in the sun without pain?
Not being alone for the rest of my life even though that would be lonely in many ways and there are days it makes me very sad not to have someone hold me and to hold. Not as a friend. As a soul mate and lover.
Not as a failure to my children. The boys are amazing and so individual. Even in the fact that there is something unique about each of them that they cherish and love despite society pressures means they will be okay. Doesn't mean they'll be perfect. Heck - I sure am not... but they will be themselves and in a world in which they know they are loved.
I think that my biggest challenge is learning that it is okay to put myself first sometimes. To ask for the time and attention I need without feeling guilty about it. Without feeling like I'm imposing or in the way or should be helping everyone else instead of being greedy and needing something for myself. It's almost like on the airplane where you put on your own oxygen mask first before helping other people. I've never done that. It's a cycle I've seen repeatedly until I am worn past useful. It's time for it to stop. I deserve to hear more yes's than no's. When I give to myself. When I learn to feel safe asking the people I love for the things I need, I will be stronger. Then I can give better. Love better. Create better. Work better. Parent better. Then I can say yes so much better to the people and things in my life and find the balance in giving and taking that I so lack now.
That is, and probably always will be my biggest challenge. And I know I need the people who love me in my life to know that. To support that, encourage that and foster that. And sometimes, during really hard times, for those people to sometimes say yes, even when I haven't had the nerve to ask the question.
and as Miss Rachel Brice told us, dance for yourself. because no one can do it for you...
Sunday, March 20, 2011
arrows
"There is a moment when you say to yourself,
oh.
There you are.
I've been waiting for you forever."
~Glee
And if you're lucky enough... love grows and expands your life and your possibilities to places you could never have imagined.
Everyone deserves that kind of love. Everyone deserves that kind of possibility.
Everyone.
Even me.
oh.
There you are.
I've been waiting for you forever."
~Glee
And if you're lucky enough... love grows and expands your life and your possibilities to places you could never have imagined.
Everyone deserves that kind of love. Everyone deserves that kind of possibility.
Everyone.
Even me.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Wanderings - Goward House - March 2011
Album of my 22 pieces currently being displayed at Goward House... lovely opening reception - so nice of friends, family and people we've never met to come by and have a look! Show is up for the rest of March so if you missed the reception, the house is open Monday-Friday during the day...

Thursday, March 3, 2011
hanging soul out
Today Mom and I are hanging our 40 combined photographs (mine) and paintings (moms) at Goward House to create the Wanderings show. I love the pieces and remember the feelings I had when I took each photo, the weather, the place, the people I was with and loving or missing. Honoured and delighted to share this amazing opportunity with my mom and I think it might be our strongest show yet of the three we've had together.
Nerve wracking though - this business of hanging your soul up for the world to see, evaluate, criticize, ignore or love. Even now, less than 2 hours before we hang, changing mind about what to hang and what not to hang.... Twitch, twitch...
Nerve wracking though - this business of hanging your soul up for the world to see, evaluate, criticize, ignore or love. Even now, less than 2 hours before we hang, changing mind about what to hang and what not to hang.... Twitch, twitch...
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